I’m a Leo sun, Scorpio Moon and Virgo Rising and I wrote this after I was frustrated with this guy I liked who was also a Leo. It didn’t work out but he would always say he’d call and one night I got fed up and wrote this to try to convince me to forget about him:
I lay here with anxiety building in my chest as I wait for a phone call that probably isn’t even coming. And if it does I’m not going to answer it anyway.
I really cannot deal with people who say one thing and do another, especially when my feelings are involved. But how did I even develop feelings this quickly? I feel such a strong connection to him but have known him for so short of a time. My throat is locking up with things I want to say but feel like I can’t because I’m being “too much” but at the same time feeling like I’m not enough. Not enough to hold his attention the way that he is holding mine.
The easy thing to do would be to run away and just stop communicating. Make it all stop. Make the pain stop. Make the waiting stop. Push these feelings away like they aren’t there. That coupled with the desire to stand up for my own self worth.
I want to want someone to talk to me as much as I want to talk to them. I don’t feel like I deserve to be an afterthought. That’s happened in the past and it had me so fucked up that I went cold. I stopped feeling pretty much anything for anyone for years because I got so used to being treated like an afterthought. I was conditioned to accept that as an okay behavior.
So now I’m still laying here with tears in my eyes and anxiety in my chest wondering if I should stay or just walk away. I’m not even sure which one would be harder.
This time, I choose me.
Read our blog post “The Signs We’ve Loved Before” here.
If you’d like to submit your relationship story please email us at firstname.lastname@example.org and include a story or situation like the one above. Please let us know at least the people’s sun signs.